..and autumn is officially drawing in. Hello September :)
RIGHT ANYWAYTHIS POST ISN'T ABOUT MEIT'S ABOUTKAARTHI.Yes you poor deluded fools, thinking what on earth has happened to her -
doing a post about KAARTHI.
WELL. It's past 2am and I'm bored out of my mind and Kaarthi so very kindly gave me something to blog about:
(click on it to enlarge it)
So yes anyway.
I mean, that says it all really. Of course, he forgot the put a decimal point in front of the one for the scale ratio of "1000000"..but nevertheless, Kaarthi, this is for you :)
indeed you are ;)
Well amigos, that's all there is to it tbh.
Over and out :)xxx
(I did my blog in this irritatingly difficult to read colour because:
- So today, I spent the day with Amiiii chasing after pigeons in queens cos I'm badman and trying on sunglasses and hats and shoes and all sorts of other wonderful treasures I could never afford JUST BECAUSE we can, and listening to "up-tempo" tuninggs, singing along to every single song in every single shop. Lovelyy. cos we're badman ;]
It's now 2am and I'm gonna keep this short and sweet. Basically, my mum went out earlier which meant I was home alone. By 12:30am I was boredddd as and so decided to go for a walk. After much pottering about around the block I came to a very comfortable spot round the back of my house and lay down in the grass.
And wow. The sky was completely cloudless and filled with hundreds of stars. And it was beautiful. I lay there and saw a couple of constellations (which, I might add, I am cool enough to know) and though they all seemed so close they really were so far away. It was chilly out and I was in a vest and trakkies but, being a lover of the cold, I loved the cool breeze and chilly atmosphere and the sight of breath against the cold brought a smile to my face as I realised winter is on its way :):):) I also spotted two shooting stars, which was also a really lovely sight.
So there I was, lying under the stars and the world was so peaceful. Everything was quiet, and as the minutes went past I saw lights go off in every room of every house across the street and it was nice to just be. No worries or cares or anxieties and I realised how precious this life we have is. (In case you haven't noticed, it was quite a deep moment.) I also realised how lucky I am to know the people I know and that I've been able to overcome things in life that I never wish upon anyone. And I still have my whole life ahead of me. And that was a rather daunting thought, considering I'm half way to 32, which I quickly pushed out of my mind.
Anyway, bottom line good stargazing sesh :) It would have been better, however, if my dear friend of whom I dedicate this post to would have joined me:
Abdul, my fellow car-park-roof-top-climbing-buddy we will stargaze sometime soon :)
Well I'm off. I'm getting up early tomorrow to go to church and I'm spending another Sunday with my dad. Goodnight you beautiful world filled with beautiful people.
well, tuh buh huh, I'm really quite bored, hence the idea for this second blog. Rather than this being a compilation of more recent songs, I've decided to make it a little "lookback" thing, with songs that have a meaning or relevance or some sort of memory to them. I'll probably keep this as an open thing that I'll add to over the remaining months of this year :) Enjoy. x
can I marry him? Please? No? Oh. :( (L)
there's quite an irritating humming sound in the background of this. :\
sitting in the park in the rain with you. :)
tune and a half, yes please (:
what a band. (:
me and my dad's tune which we blasted out whilst repainting my room :D he had good taste (H)
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Ami & Sonia will get this :L LOL.
on the bus home from school that day soniaa ;)
SEAN-A POLLLLL!
you're so beautiful. so damn beautiful. and I never want to see cry. ........CRY CRY :L
So let's lie in the grass and stare at the stars. Live through the moment, figure out who we are.
NEW ALBUM, HURRY UP PLEASE! :O
a band I introduced to Alex. It continued to fail, and he thought I hunted witches. LOL.
our first band cover :)
an old friend sent me this, back when I wore bright coloursss and had an even hencherr fringe. (Y)
me and shan's song (:
There has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture But then hurt from time to time like these And times like those And what will be will be And so it goes (:
woaaaah woah woahh..(8)
a little bit of a legend.
one of my secret loves: Big Band Jazz.
OOOOOOHHH OOOOOOOOH - Me + Ami + Sonia = great harmonization ;)
Do not place your happiness in things outside of yourself; people move on and cities burn. Instead, try to find joy in yourself. Find passion in simple things. Look in the mirror and see the most beautiful human being of all staring back at you. Do what you love and do not let another manipulate your peace of mind. Above all, learn to love yourself. Learn to be okay when you are alone. Realize that nothing worthwhile comes overnight
well, tbh with you, I've avoided doing a blog for a whileee. I just haven't had the energy, you poor deserted people :\ A lotttttt has gone down in Chaz-land latelyy, however. So there's plenty to talk about :)
On the 18th, Sonia, Ami and I went to Intimacy at the Watershed Club :) It was greaaaaat fun: got to see loads of people I haven't seen in a while and meet a few others.. What was REALLY great, was that we thought we were meeting Alex and Matt at East Croydon and getting the train to Wimbledon.. ..when lo and behold he's turned up with a LIMO. :|
And there I was, train times and ticket money a'bearing, and I felt like a little bit of a monggg :\
So anyway, we limo-ed it there, got out, and stood on the pavement whilst getting weird looks from fellow asians and waited around for what felt like HOURS to get into the club. Alex decided to introduce himself to randomers, which was rather amusing, and we eventually dragged him away.
THEN.. there was a crisis, and we three sisters went into a random nearby hotel and into there ladies room to deal with the crisis..
AND TOOK. THE. BEST. PICTURE. EVER.
I AM IN LOVE WITH IT. :| :D
(yess my sisters ;])
LOL so anyway, then we went in.. ..and RAAAAAAAAVED :D Richard got really into it.. to say the least.. :L
Exciting stuff :)
BUT what was more exciting, was the trekkk home :| Me, Angeli, Sonia and Matt left early in order to get the tram back to East Croydon in time.. but where did the trams decide to terminate?! THERAPIA LANE. Did any other tram go to East Croydon from there?! NO. :|
ISSUEEEEEEES!
So, we had to trek down some dark streets in this housing estate to find a main road, and get a 264, a bus I'd never heard of, back to West Croydon and get picked up from there :| I was however, feeling rather cheerful - the stars were out and I was up for a spot of stargazing and a sing-song.. but no-one else seemed to appreciate that :\ .. We eventually got back, I spent the night at Sonia's and the next day we went to Croydon, had a Starbucks and I went homeeeeee :)
WHATTA GOOOOOOOOOOD NIGHT! :D
I spent the rest of the week "comfort shopping", buying some boots, a pair of heels, three jumpers, a dress and a lovely wolly thing. And some hats. Nice one. (Y)
Yesterday, I spent the day at my dad's house, which was LOVELY. The weather was lovely (I got a tanned tummy :O :P), the roast we cooked was lovely, the cake we baked was lovely, and it was a generally lovely day :) However, as I stood in the living room, waiting for dinner, looking around at the lack of furniture with the place feeling rather empty, I realised just how much had gone on there, and I felt a sinking feeling as I realised how much I missed it. All the memories of my teenage life were plastered across the walls. In every room, something had happened, and I could re-live everything there and then. I realized just how much this place meant to me, and I still found it hard to leave. I wish I could re-live those years again. Just one more time. Because even though everything really wasn't perfect, there was so much that happened that made my life truly beautiful.
Anyway enough of that.. I'm not one to dwell on things. :) [Much.] Matt's gone to Portugal, and he only just got back, but he gets back soon which is good. Hmm.. I'm going out for a chinese with the sisters (which now includes Abdul..) tomorrow, and for a coffee and much needed chats tbh. ALSO, me and Ami are writing a movie, called:
THE TEXAS CHAINSAW PIGEON MASSACRE! :O
(for those of you who don't know, Sonia and Ami, not so much me, have an INTENSE fear of pigeons; the other day when I was in Queens with Ami on Saturday, we were being attacked by pigeons and hence the idea came to me :D) Scenes one and two are already written, and the rest is soon to come ;) LOL. But what really made that day, was when we strolled into Iceland and got:
CHICKEN SATAY - READY TO EAT - HOT OR COLD for ONE POUND!!! :O AND some CHEESECAKE FOR ONE POUND!
ohhhh the simple things :L
Well, erm. That's about it. I haven't stopped listening to the likes of Snowpatrol (hence the title of this blog), Athlete and Norah Jones lately. It gets me thinking. Which I don't really want to do but I sort of have to cos I need to figure things out. But it just gives me a headache.. I have however, discovered a rather lovely psychedilic funk/soul/blues band, who I am rapidly growing an appreciation for. THIS SONG in particular is truly WONDERFUL. :)
mmmmm.. yesss the sixties ;)
ARGHHHHH. RESULTS IN THREE FKN DAAAAAAAAAAYS! HOW CAN THIS BEEEEEEEEE! I REMEMBER WHEN MY GCSEs WERE FOUR FRIKKIN YEARS AWAYYYYYYYYY! - and my freak out sesh is over. But I'm still shitting it :| Good luck everyone, anyway :)
well this pretty much sums up my current feeling. Goodness. I hate not knowing what to do about things.
HMM. My green teaaaa is cold. :( I'm off to make another :) Until next time; xxx
WELL. I've deserted you for a long time :\ BUT NEVER FEAR! I AM BAAAAAAAAACKK! .. although I didn't really go anywhere..
Nevertheless, STUFF has happened. Firstly, I topped up 5 days ago, and got 300 free texts (thank you OrangeDolphin ;]) and I now have.. 200 :| This is a problem, because 300 textsss has to last me til the 2nd of September :|
Secondly, Matt buggered off sometime last week, and isn't coming back for another week.
I am now also the last remaining singleton out of my sisters :\
And I quote: "CHAZ! HURRY UP AND GET A BOYFRIEND!"
Well. I don't really know how to respond to that tbh.
I think I have issues.
I'm not really feeling it for anyone I know. And that's a rather large number of people. :| Ohh well. Stupid feelings. I cba with you anyway :) I wouldn't mind an "other half". Winter's drawing in. I hate being alone in winter.
And I never have been. This is going to be a hard winter to get through. I can feel it.
Now, last night was GREAT FUN. Taniaa, a GREAT friend of mine, had a little get-together at her houseee to catch up with a few close friends she will soon be deserting when she leaves for another 6th form :\ Me, Sonia, Ivie, Caitlin, Natalie, Sima, Tania and Saru all jammed around and good old laughs and chats :) It really was an awesome night. :) We played this game, where you had this thing that came up with a word and you had to describe it and once everyone else guessed what it was you'd pass it on, and when the thing stopped beeping you'd lose or something like that. Under the category of entertainment, I got
"Charlie Brown"
Well. This was easy enough. However, under the intense pressure of a beeping device and desperation to pass it to Caitlin who was next to me, I said:
"ME! MY NAME!! SONIA'S COLOUR! PUT THEM TOGETHER!"
hahahahahahahaa I'm still laughing about that now. It was hilarious :L
And Saru's clues were honestly dreadful :| No offence hun, but, some really were mind boggling :|
So there you have it. A great night last night filled with pizza, loadsaaa laughs that made me leave with an aching stomach and a good scary movie.
Thanksss tania, iloveyou muchoo (:
SO. The plan ahead.
Monday is Katie's 17th birthday party (for whom we - me, Sonia & Ami) still need to buy a present for ¬_¬ andddd.. yeah. ISSUES. I'm being overlyyynicee to the madre, cos I need to ask her where the exorcist is (which we intend to watch when we all go back to Soniaaa's) and also get her to let me have a bottle of alcohol that's sitting on the kitchen side and HAS NOT and probably WILL NOT be drunk. And to let me go to Katie's and spend the night at Sonia's.
THISSSS could be difficult.
Ohh well. I've been buttering her up all morning, and I'm now in a PRETTY GOOD mood thanks to the beautiful song-writing of Athlete and X-FM :):):)
So hopefully, this will work out.
And Thursday sees the reunion of me and my long lost "dumb nerd", Ayeshaa :D
GREAT GREAT GREAAAAAAAT MOOD EVERYBODY :D over and out. [for now] x
(click on it to enlarge it) 
and this is his post. :\)
again, for Ami;)
