we just like to party, like to p-p-party YEAHHH.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKK EEEEK EEK EEEEEEK EEEEK AND EEEEEEKITY EEK!
IT'S NEW YEARS EVEEEE BABYYY!!
:D :D :D

I honestly thought this day would never comeee.
This year has gonee so s-l-o-o-o-w-w-w-w-w-l-y-y-y.
I've made many mistakes, done things I regret, many I'd rather forget, somethings I wish I'd left unsaid, some things I wish I had said instead, things I wish I could do over again.
I've met new people, lost old friends and family, there's been tears both from heartache and laughter, lots of picture and exam taking, birthday celebrating, horror-movie-watching, train journey-ing, hand holding, drinking, laughing, lies, tears.

This year was the best, and the worst, but just another chapter in a book of mine that I like to call life.

There were mistakes made so lessons could be learned.

So bring on the partaaaaaay into 2010; another year older, another year wiser :)
Less mistakes, more laughs, more pictures, and more CLASSIC times with the Punjabi 4. To the rest of y'aaal: I love you and Happy New Yearrrr.
:D xxx

a picture says a thousand words.

i employ magical thinkingg.

HELLOOOO BOXING DAY SALE :)

Despite having no money to spend on the sale when I met sonia today, I did seeee an awful lotta lovely stuff that I need, well want, to buy that is actually within my price range :) so I came home, got some money from the fammm and am going to attack those sales tomorrow :D
Christmas was awesome, had a lovely timeee with the famfamalamlam that I hardly get to see, which was lovely :) and we also saw some UFOs, I kid you not. Yes i know you think I'm crazy, but how else can you explain orange squares that fly in perfect arcs across the cloudless sky and then just disappear!? -.- it was eventful, to say the leastttt.

HMPRGH. Is my current feeling.
Despiteee being in a loveeerly chirpy mood, I do find it reaaaaaally irritating how I never want what's right in front of me. And I'm beginning to think this isn't my fault, because I never actually get what I want, just everything that I don't want.
And it's frustrating, because 9 times out of ten the thing that is right in front of you is practially perfect, and there's nothing wrong with whatever or whoever it is, but you just, don't want it..And what you do want is completely uninterested or unaware.
Why do people do this!?

W
H
Y
.

hencee, hmprgh.

oh wellllllll, never mindddd ehh.
I just wish something would work out in my favour for once. Some people really do have it all in life, just like that.
But I guess you have to make the most of the cards your dealt, otherwise you lose at this game of life.

:)#

it's chrissssssssstmasssss :D

I HAVEN'T BEEN UP THIS EARLY SINCE I WAS LIKE, 8, BUT I'M SOO EXCITEDDDDD!!! :D

-well actually, I've been excited about christmas for about four hourss.. well tbh it was more or less since one when people turned up at my house and a bottle of something was openened (I have no idea what but it tasted fruityyy) and tequila shots were made and a Jay Sean album appeared para miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D loveeeely stuff.
I couldn't open the rest of my presentss; well obviously. I mean it was only 3 in the morning.
But now it is SEVEN THIRTY and everybody should be uppp :) or at least they soon will be when I start blasting up "BABY ARE YOU DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWNN" which, I hasten to add, alan hates, so that outta wake him uppp :)

IT'S CHRISTMASSSSSS DAAAAAAAAAAY GUYSSSSSSSS!

...ouch.
I just opened my front door with the intention to go get some waterrr and fell over my stocking. urmm.. :|

Anywhoo.. I'd like to advise the following:
Don't kiss to many peopleunder the mistletoee ayteeee ;)
Hahaha no but seriously, eat to you hearts content, slob in front of the tv (once you've helped out here and there, ofc ;P) and watchh complete trashh, listen to some good old tuuunees and have a laugh with those closest to you because this is the only day when it actually isn't frowned upon to do so :)

I hope you all getwhat you wish for, and have a very merry christmass :)
xxx

christmas eveee :)

I apologise in advance for the possible spelling mistakes - I'm doing this blog by candlelight, which is actually rather romanticccc :) I am however, alone, which is not :\
and I would also like to say hi to Alex, who reads my blog/stalks me, so thanks for that (:

- SO it's 12:30am exactly on the 24th of December :)

But before I get onto that, I'd likeee to thank the now 17 year old Matthew Aaron Desmond for last nighttt; it was an awesome night, thank you loveeey :) It was immensely funny to see you break your own front door.. not so funny to find out how you got ripped apart by your rents :\ I did however, break my 'I'm not drinking anymore' policy.. nevertheless, that'll start in the new yeaaar :)
Secondly, I DON'T UNDERSTAND how the most, is how the person who is like, the complete opposite of who I'd like and who I'd go for is like someone who is totally on my mind -.- Mnehh. Maybe it's the alcohol that hasn't quite worn off yet :\ LOL.

I'm also so immensely excited, because it's about a week until the end of 2009. And I cannot express how long I have waiteeeed for this moment. I can't honestly wait to see the end of this awfully long and tiresome year. Although I have to say, a few lessons have been learnt along the way, and I honestly swear never to make the same foolish mistakes again. :)
I have also learnt that Sex and the City actually provides people with immensely liberating advice, regardless of what people think.
I have also decided to not tell that boy I like him as I previously said I would; some things are better left unsaid in my right mind. Better not ruin a perfectily legitimate friendship, I learnt that the hard way.

So what else.. well, it's christmas day tomorrow :D Tbh I do wish I was a little more excited.. because at this present moment in time I couldn't be further from it.
But nevertheless, I have decided to spend this christmas con mi padreeeee :) which outta be nice, I hope. BUT considering he doesn't have a house since he sold it last thursday, this meanssss spending it with a few, naaat so close family members, which tbh is a little FML. Oh well :)

Yes I know this is New York, but c'mon, we all know it looks better
than England, so let's just accept it. :)

~ Well anyway, this isn't going to be a long blog, I have to get up early tomorrow :)
I leave you with my new found love, and a very merry christmas eve :)

xxx
(L)

my mind, i took it to chicago :)

SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!

I had the best walk home in the world just now.

I had a starbucks and a bag of books (I had been nerding in the library, ya see), and the traffic was solid and everyone looked grumpy and I just skipped along with a grin listening to James Morrison.

EEEEEEEEEEEK
is all I can say.
It's so close I can almost taste it :)

I'm actually so excited, you know when you're anticipating something that's actually quite a while away and requires a lot of work in the present to get to, and then something just triggers off immense excitement and makes you want it to come a whole lot faster? Well if you don't, that's how I'm feeling :D
Let's not question and just accept :)
One slight problemo.. I do wish it was a little colder :\ I can cope in a jumper.. Nevertheless everyone else seems to be complaining about the cold.
Anyway, I'm off to wrap my mummsies present before she comes home :O and so I leave y'aall on this snoweeeey eveeeenin' with a few tunes :)

and EEEEEEEEKKK!! :D
xxxx

^ I did get funny looks skipping along singing this :$ :)

three little birds sat on my window :)

TWO BLOGS IN TWO DAYS :O
I'm getting better at this :)

Hahahaa okay, so AMAZING news;
WE BROKE UP FROM SCHOOL A DAY EARLYYY :D cos ya see, tomorrow has about a 60-80% chance of snow, which means, SNOW DAY, which means effort for people to come in so today was the last day of term insteaad :) mmmmhm.

Now, I've decided to write up my new years resolutions, and add to them in the remaining days of 2009 :) And I cannot tell you how good it feels that there are only 14 more days left to this veryyyy, verrrrryyyyy long year.

But here goes :D

2010. :)
Be less emotionally attatched
Drink less alcohol (no matter what zan says i will do this.)
Substitute coffee with green tea. Alternatively, get more sleep.
Take a more laidback approach to things :)
Don't stress as much.
Try something newwww.
Do something I've always wanted to do
Argue less
Be more calm
Be less sensitive
Go to the gym at least once a week
Appreciate what I have more
Be nicer to my rentss..
Be more open with what's on my mind rather than keeping it all to myself
Have more self confidence and belief (okay maybe I should be more realistic)
Work hard
Take up those art classes
Read more
Tell boy I like him (I may do this before the new year.)
Control moods more and warn people when I'm pissed off
Stop taking things out on people
Stop being a pushover
..But don't be to headstrong
Find a balance in life
Follow my own optimistic advice that seems easier to share with others
Take more risks
Take every opportunity - you'll regret it later if you don't
Don't make the same mistakes
Don't fall for the same people
Give blood
Get an organ doner card
SAXOPHONE.
(I have to admit this is turning more and more into a "to-do" list)
Slow downnnnnn sometimes
Don't lose all hope and think I'm a failure just because something's difficult

And that'll be all for now :) I'm also open to suggestions, so comment below :)

I leave you with this.
xx

And the christmas songs begin (:

ALOHA.

YESSS YESS: I know I haven't done a blog in ages, but schoolwork has actually become my LIFE. When I hear people lower down the school complaining about work, I think, 'You have no idea :|'
But enough small talk.
Tonight was the Whitgift Charity show, and the first night of this entire winter term that I have had no work, so I'm tucked up in bed with a hot chocolate and have finally decided to come entertain you deserted people whilst winding down to some Nerina Palot :)
The charity show was actually really good, the smoke machine which set off the fire alarm aside that led us to stand in the rain whilst the fire brigade came to make sure the school wasn't burning down ¬_¬ .. but that was good :)
It also started snowing today, which makes me think that this Christmas, which is 9 days away, NINE FRICKING DAYS, may actually be a white Christmas :)

Hmm.. what else..

Oh yes;; why do people who always mean well by there actions and only do things because they care end up being the ones who get the blame and are criticised, whereas had they not done anything the same would have happened for the reverse reason.. or when all you do is put people first before you and constantly look out for them, yet they say you put them last. You can never win really.
Another question on my mind is how some people are free to criticise others but fail to look at themselves. And how people outta be more opened minded about situations.

What I have cunningly compiled over the past few weeks are a few New Years Resolutions.. but I'll save that for my next blog. WHICH WILL NOT BE IN MARCH, or some ridiculous time span from now.
I think one of them should be: update blog more often..

Mmmkay.
The remainder of this blog is going to be another one of those deep filled thought provoking things that I've learnt over the course of this year.. but until next time, which will probably be some time on friday, peace out. :)

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Clichés are funny things. And by clichés, I don’t mean the “once upon a time” kind of clichés, because we all know life isn’t a fairytale. I mean the, “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone” type clichés. To begin with, I guess they were simple pieces of advice people shared with one another from personal experience, and now, they’re so overused in everyday conversation one way or another that they’ve earned this glorious title of a cliché. But I don’t think it’s because they’ve been overused – I think it’s because as humane as we are, we never cease to make the same mistakes over and over again, one way or another, and no matter how many times we’ve heard it, we still go ahead and do what we want to do only to look back later with a “what if” or an “I wish I had.” But that’s the thing – you can’t - you should have done then. And stubborn and as headstrong as we are, we then have the immense difficulty of letting things go.

Don’t get me wrong, some people find letting go of stuff as easy as making a cup of tea, but the rest of us find letting things go harder than rocket science. As true as it may be that you can only learn from your mistakes, and perhaps your mistakes are what make your fate, but WHAT IF, (see, I’ve used that twice already), we simply can’t accept these mistakes we’ve made – then what? We’re stuck in a continuum of realisation that, a few months down the line, makes us wish they hadn’t spent so much time regretting the past that has in turn caused missed opportunities in the present which leads to more regret and so on. And that is the source of this – regret.

It doesn’t even sound like a nice word. You know how you can sometimes get words that, nice though they may sound, have a sinister meaning, like.. sinister. Well, regret doesn’t fit into the category. And rightly so, because it is a horrible thing. It keeps you awake and night, going over and over scenes in your mind that make you feel worse and worse the more you think about them. What I think makes them worse is the fact that regrets are often to do with people, not so much that shirt you bought last week. It’s more the person you never said goodbye to, the person you lied to and so on. Often, this regret turns inwards to personal blame, as if the fact that they are no longer here is your fault and you could have done something to prevent it. Or even simply, “if only I knew”. And that’s the thing – we don’t know. The only thing we do know is what’s here, right now, this very second. We cannot tell what’s going to happen tomorrow, and we cannot simply assume that every single day is going to be the same as the last, though it often is. People come in and out of your life for one reason – to teach you something about yourself, or the world around you. Nothing else. And they don’t stay forever – everything ends sooner or later (preferably later, in my case). That’s what people fail to realise – the second something begins, it’s only a matter of time before it ends, and is taken away from you just like that, and you have to start all over again. That’s the hardest part; waking up one morning and having something or at worst, everything just fall apart, or waking up and realise that thing you automatically do, like text a boyfriend or call a best friend isn’t practical anymore because you’ve broken up or they’re not talking to you anymore; when you walk through the front door and find boxes filled with years and years of laughter, tears and love are stacked nearby. To well and truly turn your back on something is like turning a page in your favourite book which you want to read over and over again, but you can’t. Once you’ve read the words they have to say, they disappear, and you can’t get them back again.

So all you can do is take a chance in life, and hold onto everything and everyone like there’s no tomorrow. If you love someone, never be too afraid to tell them. Put all your heart and soul into everything you do – if you don’t, you’ve given nothing. Realise that things begin so that they can end, but make sure that when it does, you can look back and say you’ve never been happier :)

^I LOVE HER.:|

Sometimes what you want the most is what you’re better off without.

Infatuation: loving feelings towards a love object that are largely based upon fantasy and idealization (instead of experience). Often when partners get to know each other, infatuation diminishes.

Romantic Love: An abiding love for a partner with whom you feel passion, attraction, caring and respect.

Eros: a passionate love usually involving sexual feelings for a love interest.

Companionate Love: feelings of warmth towards a friend with whom you love to spend time with.

Unconditional Love: A type of affection and caring that is so strong that you feel it consistently, regardless of what that other person does.

Conditional Love: A love that requires specific action or conditions in order to be maintained. For example, at its extreme, a parent who gives very conditional love would only love his child when he gets straight A’s, becomes a surgeon and has two children. The love is based on outside conditions and when they do not occur, the love is withdrawn.

Puppy Love: A childish, innocent temporary crush on someone that you don’t know well.

Maternal Love: This term usually connotes love that is nurturing, accepting and protective. In actuality this love can also be given by a father etc.

Paternal Love: This term connotes love that involves guidance and some authority. Paternal love usually prepares a child to be ready for the outside world. Again, in reality this type of love is not gender specific.

Soulmate Love: This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.

Spiritual/Divine Love: This type of love recognizes the Divine light in everyone and everything. Love is given to everyone as an act of loving God.

Love of your country or patriotism: This is love for the place you live or the place that were born. It is a type of loyalty and a special feeling of belonging that you attribute to that specific geographic location.

Self-Love: This is a positive feeling that you have about who you are and what you deserve. It often is expressed by treating yourself well, respecting yourself, wanting yourself to be happy and expecting others to respect you too.

Brotherly Love: This term connotes having a feeling of love for your neighbor, because all humanity is considered to be part of a larger family of human beings.

Tough Love: This term is used to describe a love that is expressed by setting boundaries for the good of the other person. So for example, a parent may send their teenager to rehab if he is drug addicted, even if he does not want to go. They feel that this is an act of love because it stems from a desire for their son’s ultimate good and happiness. This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.

s(he) be(lie)ve(d).

we live with what we miss.

WHAT IS GWANING HOMIES.

Gheeez.. last blog was in September. Goes to show how much of an affect 6th form has had on me, I have no time anymore.
Anyway, you poor deserted people, here's the lowdown on life, as it currently stands.

A lottttts gone down.
Everyone's stressed about school and the pressures of AS, and I've never been so grateful that half term has FINALLY come around. However, the slight irritant with this is that 6 weeks of term has already gone, which means I am now 6 weeks closer to my AS exams, and I feel like my brain has refused to wake up after a longggg summer of sitting in my skull being left to turn into a soggy sponge. Nice.

Having said this, half-term really isn't that much of a break for me either. I have dance rehearsals for the fashion show which has been moved forward to the 13th and 14th of NOVEMBER, and I am SO excited about (the MJ dance, just, OMG..); all this Young Enterprise business which I actually haven't quite grasped the concept of if I'm totally honest (Ami seems to enjoy it..) and then there's all the work I have to try and understand that I haven't understood as of yet, BUT I am looking forward to the lovely Mellisa's "get to know people" party on F-F-FRIDAAY :)

Erm, so what else.. Oh yes. Here's a bit on last month..
Me and Ami decided to have a little "let's jam in the park and forget all our worries" sesh on the 26th of September :) ohh, what a bad BAD BAD idea.

- Let's just say she was a little too far gone and it was a little chilly for dolly shoes in my case and I couldn't feel my toes for quite a while. AND to top it all off I had consumed a little more than 2units, if you know what I mean, which meant I went home and regurgatated the mushroom-sauce-spaghetti-plus-cheese-THING I munched before I went to meet her. Lovely. My dad thought I had od'ed on something, but I miraculously wormed my way out of it by saying it was all down to the "bad spaghetti.."
Note to self: DO NOT eat carbs before drinking. Or to be safe, don't eat :L

I have also officialy met the second biggest dick of my life. (Congratulations.)

Not in a literal sense, mind, it's more of a "he's such a dick" sense.
And to make it worse, he messed with my sister.

And F.Y.I, you don't do that.

Fair do's, if you don't like someone and they like you, you can't do anything about it. But under no circumstances is it "okay" or "cool" or "badman" to lead someone on, when you know full well you don't like them and they like you, and then lie to them, and fool them, then cheat on them and ignore them time and time again, regardless of who you think you are, because at the end of the day, that just makes you a shallow fool. And in this case, tbh, he can't do any better than my sister. Simple as. And the crazy thing, is when you like/love someone, you want to believe they're good, even when they're not. And he's not. At all. And I really feel for her, because I totally understand how she feels, and noone deserves to feel this way at all.
I honestly think guys like this deserve no more than a taste of their own medicine, I really do. I mean seriously, who do they think they are?! :| grrrrrrrrrrr.

Sexist rant out of the way, let's move onto something more loving.
WINTER IS ON ITS' WAY AROUND PEOPLE :)
I can now see my breath in the morning when I walk to school. LOVELY JUBBLY :)


I am also preeeeeetty sure the person I thought I didn't like, I do like. Not so lovely.
Hmmm.. :\ It's so much effort liking someone. On the plus side, he actually is a nice guy for once, which is rather wonderful, cos it goes to show I've moved on from my 'pretty-boy-every-girl-wants-me-but-I-just-play-around' type phase, which really, no-one deserves and is just plain arrogant.

OH. I am in LOVE with Colbie Caillat's new albummmm :D
It's pure serenity.

I wish I could sing like her :\ Oh well. I'll be content with learning the guitar tabs :D

I also want to change my hair. I don't know how.. Maybe do something different with the layers? I'm just feeling a change for the new year. To say this year has not been as good as I'd hoped would be an understatement, so let's just say there's always next year :) In case you hadn't noticed, I'm trying a more positive approach to things in life. It doesn't pay to be negative ;)

I am also doing something about my life, rather than just sitting around and let it gather dust, which within itself is a good reason to get out of bed in the morning :)Beautiful.
Which, actually, it's a lot more than I can say for this world we live in; just the other day, I saw a bunch of drunken men on a sidewalk, not much older than me, who've thrown their lives away. I mean, how can people live with no ambition, and just sit on a sidewalk and drink all day? I saw an old man, who ran off a bus and nearly broke his back to follow a teenage girl up to east croydon. I mean, woww. I saw a girl about half my age shouting at her grandfather on the bus telling him to "not speak to her when I'm having a conversation". I mean seriously, what has happened!? I know I must sound like a downright old lady when I say this, but it's true.
Nicely said. :)

But all-in-all, things could always be a hell of a lot worse and all I need to do is take a deep breath and slow down as we easeeeee our way into a lovely winter. (:
xxx

.. and i've never tried cream soda..

ALOHAAAAAAAAAA! :D

YES YES I KNOW ITS BEEN LONG

okay so i cba to do a blog about 6th form and how longggg everything is and how much effort all the stupid subjects are etc etc etc, but BASICALLY, it's alrite :)

so its just gone past midnight, and Sonia is snuggling into my right boob, which is ALWAYS a joy :)
but anyway,

PROBLEMS.

"there's the colourful one, there's snickers, there's cornetto, there's the normal one.."

ISSUES MUCH.

WE CANNOT DECIDE WHICH ICE-CREAM TO HAVE. :

12:15am - we have now got fruitful lollypops, so i can officialy blog away :)

Basically, my mum chucked me out the house today, so she could sort things out with her boiff, and I had nowhere to stay. However, I took refuge at my lovely sister's house :D
and, well, we are now deepthroating lollipops.
HAHAHAA

but anyway, this wasn't the purpose of the blog.
I am blogging, because I AM BEING STALKED.
And it spreading. To my sisters, ami and sonia.

This foreign person, hereby named "Fahrid Ahmaddsasdfashjue" or whatever has added me and sonia and ami, who have told this person who told ami i was the girl of his dreams that I AM A LESBIAN. :D
BUT.. he does not believe me, and won't leave us three alone.
WHAT IS rather funny, is that I apparently make him want to try a cream soda :
which, is, totally, relevant, considering he is 22 :

why do people do this!?

see I don't understand why random people on facebook just ADD you. It's just unneccesary.

Speaking of unnecesary, me and sonia and her two sisters went to Chiquitos earlier :D and sonia, who decided to be the badman that she is [8-)], tried to pick up the ice-cubes with her two strawssss. : Of course, it failed, and they fell on the floor..
(She did pick one up by looping it in the pre-made hole in the ice.. but nevertheless that, "worked.") : HAHAHAA

anyways, that aside, good times good times :D and i'm pretty glad my mum did kick me out tbh :)
shame my dad's coming to pick me up at 10.30 tomorrow :/

OH OH OH! Let's do a transcript:

sonia: why? you're so cool chaz..

me: *laughs* i know :)

sonia: why would you do that OMG STOP WRITING IT DOWN

me: because i want to. gives me something to fill the blog with. i want to chart every moment of us togetherrr *laughs*

sonia: ... : abduls back :)
- abdul says:
back
k i couldnt find lollies
so youll have to do with
bounties

...and so the jokes msn webcam session continues into the early hours of the morning. :)

Until tomorrow :)

Goodnight :D

xxx

open your eyes.

Well.
Here we go again, September begins.

As much as I love the weather as winter begins to draw in, I really dislike this time of year. Everything goes wrong for me. Well, more than usual. As it gets cold, I begin to feel cold and really.. blank. I look back on the year gone by and I see way too many mistakes I swore I wouldn't make again from the year before that. And the year before that. And the year before that. But somehow, they still worm their way into my present life and I relive them, somehow.

I'm getting pretty fucked off with myself, to put it lightly.

I really really REALLY hate how I screw things up.
In life, there's so many roads, so many choices; but somehow, they always lead to mistakes.
And it's very well and good that you learn from your mistakes, but how many mistake is a person supposed to make before they become all knowing? :|
I mean, say, you go through one thing in life and it ends up in a terrible mess but it was a risk you had to take to begin with. The second time around, you're too afraid to take the risk because of what happened before: you think you're being clever. But then, you come to realise that you made a mistake in not taking the risk of making the same mistake again.
And so you end up stuck in this endless cycle of mistakes and "shoulda woulda couldas" and "what ifs" and "if onlys" that actually drive you up the wall and question just how much you think you know after it all.

And say once you've made this mistake, you miss the fate you're meant to have. Or maybe, mistakes are made for a reason, in order for you to realise your fate.
But what if they're not.
And you are just stuck living a life of mistakes and regrets that haunt you when you lie awake at night.

When does it stop being okay, and you're just a fool? It seems the older you get, the less you know.
I'm beginning to think children, so innocent and naive, are more or less on the right track.
And then we grew up.

I think the past is a beautiful thing, whether it was a year ago or yesterday.
Sometimes.
But other times, your past is rather inappropriately called your past, because it never really stays there. It comes back to haunt you, through a new lover, a new job, a new house, a new experience, something new, something in your present.

I'm a little tired of making mistakes.
Wasted chances, experiences, opportunities.
But I'm even more tired of it a routine, something I've grown accustomed to.

Never mind.
Friday tomorrow, last school day of the week, even though it's only been two days this week..

And as my aunty said:

"dont wish for the past..look to the future"
:)
xxx

he's a blog star ;) .. for tonight anyway.

PINCH PUNCH FIRST OF THE MONTH

..and autumn is officially drawing in.
Hello September :)

RIGHT ANYWAY THIS POST ISN'T ABOUT ME IT'S ABOUT KAARTHI. Yes you poor deluded fools, thinking what on earth has happened to her -

doing a post about KAARTHI.

WELL.
It's past 2am and I'm bored out of my mind and Kaarthi so very kindly gave me something to blog about:

(click on it to enlarge it)

So yes anyway.

I mean, that says it all really.
Of course, he forgot the put a decimal point in front of the one for the scale ratio of "1000000".. but nevertheless, Kaarthi, this is for you :)

indeed you are ;)

Well amigos, that's all there is to it tbh.

Over and out :) xxx

(I did my blog in this irritatingly difficult to read colour because:

and this is his post. :\)

Ursa Major and the sort. (:

heyyy there (:

- So today, I spent the day with Amiiii chasing after pigeons in queens cos I'm badman and trying on sunglasses and hats and shoes and all sorts of other wonderful treasures I could never afford JUST BECAUSE we can, and listening to "up-tempo" tuninggs, singing along to every single song in every single shop. Lovelyy.
cos we're badman ;]

It's now 2am and I'm gonna keep this short and sweet.
Basically, my mum went out earlier which meant I was home alone. By 12:30am I was boredddd as and so decided to go for a walk.
After much pottering about around the block I came to a very comfortable spot round the back of my house and lay down in the grass.

And wow.
The sky was completely cloudless and filled with hundreds of stars. And it was beautiful.
I lay there and saw a couple of constellations (which, I might add, I am cool enough to know) and though they all seemed so close they really were so far away.
It was chilly out and I was in a vest and trakkies but, being a lover of the cold, I loved the cool breeze and chilly atmosphere and the sight of breath against the cold brought a smile to my face as I realised winter is on its way :):):) I also spotted two shooting stars, which was also a really lovely sight.

So there I was, lying under the stars and the world was so peaceful.
Everything was quiet, and as the minutes went past I saw lights go off in every room of every house across the street and it was nice to just be. No worries or cares or anxieties and I realised how precious this life we have is. (In case you haven't noticed, it was quite a deep moment.) I also realised how lucky I am to know the people I know and that I've been able to overcome things in life that I never wish upon anyone. And I still have my whole life ahead of me. And that was a rather daunting thought, considering I'm half way to 32, which I quickly pushed out of my mind.

Anyway, bottom line good stargazing sesh :)
It would have been better, however, if my dear friend of whom I dedicate this post to would have joined me:

Abdul,
my fellow car-park-roof-top-climbing-buddy
we will stargaze sometime soon :)

Well I'm off.
I'm getting up early tomorrow to go to church and I'm spending another Sunday with my dad.
Goodnight you beautiful world filled with beautiful people.

And hello Sunday morninggg. :)
xxx

The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake and miss you.

TUNEEEES, QUOTES and OTHER SHINDINGS :)

well, tuh buh huh, I'm really quite bored, hence the idea for this second blog.
Rather than this being a compilation of more recent songs, I've decided to make it a little "lookback" thing, with songs that have a meaning or relevance or some sort of memory to them.
I'll probably keep this as an open thing that I'll add to over the remaining months of this year :)
Enjoy.
x



can I marry him? Please? No? Oh. :( (L)

there's quite an irritating humming sound in the background of this. :\

sitting in the park in the rain with you. :)

tune and a half, yes please (:

what a band. (:





me and my dad's tune which we blasted out whilst repainting my room :D he had good taste (H)



:\ (L)



Ami & Sonia will get this :L LOL.



on the bus home from school that day soniaa ;)



SEAN-A POLLLLL!



you're so beautiful. so damn beautiful.
and I never want to see cry.
........CRY CRY :L

.. VAT VAT.

yess yesssssss Ami ;)

again, for Ami;)

and again, yesss Ami. RAAAAAAVE (H.)

from 0:52: for Ivie ;D

B.F.C (L)

just because.

So let's lie in the grass and stare at the stars.
Live through the moment,
figure out who we are.

NEW ALBUM, HURRY UP PLEASE! :O

a band I introduced to Alex. It continued to fail, and he thought I hunted witches. LOL.

our first band cover :)


an old friend sent me this, back when I wore bright coloursss and had an even hencherr fringe. (Y)


me and shan's song (:

There has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying
Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
But then hurt from time to time like these
And times like those
And what will be will be
And so it goes (:

woaaaah woah woahh..(8)


a little bit of a legend.


one of my secret loves: Big Band Jazz.


OOOOOOHHH OOOOOOOOH - Me + Ami + Sonia = great harmonization ;)

Do not place your happiness in things outside of yourself;
people move on and cities burn.
Instead, try to find joy in yourself.
Find passion in simple things.
Look in the mirror and see the most beautiful human being of all staring back at you.
Do what you love and do not let another manipulate your peace of mind.
Above all, learn to love yourself.
Learn to be okay when you are alone.
Realize that nothing worthwhile comes overnight