Sometimes what you want the most is what you’re better off without.

Infatuation: loving feelings towards a love object that are largely based upon fantasy and idealization (instead of experience). Often when partners get to know each other, infatuation diminishes.

Romantic Love: An abiding love for a partner with whom you feel passion, attraction, caring and respect.

Eros: a passionate love usually involving sexual feelings for a love interest.

Companionate Love: feelings of warmth towards a friend with whom you love to spend time with.

Unconditional Love: A type of affection and caring that is so strong that you feel it consistently, regardless of what that other person does.

Conditional Love: A love that requires specific action or conditions in order to be maintained. For example, at its extreme, a parent who gives very conditional love would only love his child when he gets straight A’s, becomes a surgeon and has two children. The love is based on outside conditions and when they do not occur, the love is withdrawn.

Puppy Love: A childish, innocent temporary crush on someone that you don’t know well.

Maternal Love: This term usually connotes love that is nurturing, accepting and protective. In actuality this love can also be given by a father etc.

Paternal Love: This term connotes love that involves guidance and some authority. Paternal love usually prepares a child to be ready for the outside world. Again, in reality this type of love is not gender specific.

Soulmate Love: This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.

Spiritual/Divine Love: This type of love recognizes the Divine light in everyone and everything. Love is given to everyone as an act of loving God.

Love of your country or patriotism: This is love for the place you live or the place that were born. It is a type of loyalty and a special feeling of belonging that you attribute to that specific geographic location.

Self-Love: This is a positive feeling that you have about who you are and what you deserve. It often is expressed by treating yourself well, respecting yourself, wanting yourself to be happy and expecting others to respect you too.

Brotherly Love: This term connotes having a feeling of love for your neighbor, because all humanity is considered to be part of a larger family of human beings.

Tough Love: This term is used to describe a love that is expressed by setting boundaries for the good of the other person. So for example, a parent may send their teenager to rehab if he is drug addicted, even if he does not want to go. They feel that this is an act of love because it stems from a desire for their son’s ultimate good and happiness. This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.

s(he) be(lie)ve(d).

we live with what we miss.

WHAT IS GWANING HOMIES.

Gheeez.. last blog was in September. Goes to show how much of an affect 6th form has had on me, I have no time anymore.
Anyway, you poor deserted people, here's the lowdown on life, as it currently stands.

A lottttts gone down.
Everyone's stressed about school and the pressures of AS, and I've never been so grateful that half term has FINALLY come around. However, the slight irritant with this is that 6 weeks of term has already gone, which means I am now 6 weeks closer to my AS exams, and I feel like my brain has refused to wake up after a longggg summer of sitting in my skull being left to turn into a soggy sponge. Nice.

Having said this, half-term really isn't that much of a break for me either. I have dance rehearsals for the fashion show which has been moved forward to the 13th and 14th of NOVEMBER, and I am SO excited about (the MJ dance, just, OMG..); all this Young Enterprise business which I actually haven't quite grasped the concept of if I'm totally honest (Ami seems to enjoy it..) and then there's all the work I have to try and understand that I haven't understood as of yet, BUT I am looking forward to the lovely Mellisa's "get to know people" party on F-F-FRIDAAY :)

Erm, so what else.. Oh yes. Here's a bit on last month..
Me and Ami decided to have a little "let's jam in the park and forget all our worries" sesh on the 26th of September :) ohh, what a bad BAD BAD idea.

- Let's just say she was a little too far gone and it was a little chilly for dolly shoes in my case and I couldn't feel my toes for quite a while. AND to top it all off I had consumed a little more than 2units, if you know what I mean, which meant I went home and regurgatated the mushroom-sauce-spaghetti-plus-cheese-THING I munched before I went to meet her. Lovely. My dad thought I had od'ed on something, but I miraculously wormed my way out of it by saying it was all down to the "bad spaghetti.."
Note to self: DO NOT eat carbs before drinking. Or to be safe, don't eat :L

I have also officialy met the second biggest dick of my life. (Congratulations.)

Not in a literal sense, mind, it's more of a "he's such a dick" sense.
And to make it worse, he messed with my sister.

And F.Y.I, you don't do that.

Fair do's, if you don't like someone and they like you, you can't do anything about it. But under no circumstances is it "okay" or "cool" or "badman" to lead someone on, when you know full well you don't like them and they like you, and then lie to them, and fool them, then cheat on them and ignore them time and time again, regardless of who you think you are, because at the end of the day, that just makes you a shallow fool. And in this case, tbh, he can't do any better than my sister. Simple as. And the crazy thing, is when you like/love someone, you want to believe they're good, even when they're not. And he's not. At all. And I really feel for her, because I totally understand how she feels, and noone deserves to feel this way at all.
I honestly think guys like this deserve no more than a taste of their own medicine, I really do. I mean seriously, who do they think they are?! :| grrrrrrrrrrr.

Sexist rant out of the way, let's move onto something more loving.
WINTER IS ON ITS' WAY AROUND PEOPLE :)
I can now see my breath in the morning when I walk to school. LOVELY JUBBLY :)


I am also preeeeeetty sure the person I thought I didn't like, I do like. Not so lovely.
Hmmm.. :\ It's so much effort liking someone. On the plus side, he actually is a nice guy for once, which is rather wonderful, cos it goes to show I've moved on from my 'pretty-boy-every-girl-wants-me-but-I-just-play-around' type phase, which really, no-one deserves and is just plain arrogant.

OH. I am in LOVE with Colbie Caillat's new albummmm :D
It's pure serenity.

I wish I could sing like her :\ Oh well. I'll be content with learning the guitar tabs :D

I also want to change my hair. I don't know how.. Maybe do something different with the layers? I'm just feeling a change for the new year. To say this year has not been as good as I'd hoped would be an understatement, so let's just say there's always next year :) In case you hadn't noticed, I'm trying a more positive approach to things in life. It doesn't pay to be negative ;)

I am also doing something about my life, rather than just sitting around and let it gather dust, which within itself is a good reason to get out of bed in the morning :)Beautiful.
Which, actually, it's a lot more than I can say for this world we live in; just the other day, I saw a bunch of drunken men on a sidewalk, not much older than me, who've thrown their lives away. I mean, how can people live with no ambition, and just sit on a sidewalk and drink all day? I saw an old man, who ran off a bus and nearly broke his back to follow a teenage girl up to east croydon. I mean, woww. I saw a girl about half my age shouting at her grandfather on the bus telling him to "not speak to her when I'm having a conversation". I mean seriously, what has happened!? I know I must sound like a downright old lady when I say this, but it's true.
Nicely said. :)

But all-in-all, things could always be a hell of a lot worse and all I need to do is take a deep breath and slow down as we easeeeee our way into a lovely winter. (:
xxx