Tuesday, 16 June 2009

definitions :)

With trust comes love; with love comes trust. Whether it be love for your partner or spouse, or a deep feeling of affection for friends and family. Either way, neither can exist without the other - both are inexplicably linked.

So what are you supposed to do, when someone you trust, someone you've come to depend on, someone you've known for years, does not appear to be on the same perceptivity of your friendship as you? It is a feeling which makes you feel ineligible, as someone or some other people, who are by no means as close as you may be to the person concerened, appear to fill your place just fine when it comes to help through certain issues or discussing things which are on their mind and clearly affecting them. It makes you question, were all those years of "You know I'm here for you" and other reassuring words of comfort at times of need were even worth it, or if they mean anything or were simple words lost through time. It is, nonetheless, not your place to decide who someone opens up to. But at the end of the day, one cannot help but feel slightly used and somewhat insignificant, particularly if such situations become reocurrent, which in turn, begins to question the very foundations of trust which a friendship, and relationship, is built on.

Relationships: A word used to define a broad state of connectedness between people, especially an emotional connection.
Still, what defines a relationship in life and separates it from the black ink imprints on a page of the Oxford dictionary? Relationships, whether they be relations between lovers, friends or family, all have a big impact on your life someway or another and have a specific place in your heart. In some respects, they never really leave; they're born and die, just like everything in life, and as time passes you learn to bury the memories and place them in a secure confinement in the back of your mind where it should stay. And yet, somehow, somewhere, someone or something will drag those feelings or thoughts that you thought were long gone, and throw you off the steady course through life which you were so carelessly treading, and your life is thrown into the air, collapsing on the floor in what feels like a thousand jigsaw pieces without a picture on the box to help you piece it back together. But what if the trust has gone? The feelings no longer exist, desires are unrequited? Without a doubt, you should pick yourself up and move on, because for sure, there is someone out there who will love you more.

Love, and trust are all entwined and build the support on which any developing relationship depends. As a result, when either value is lacking or in question, the entire thing can collapse. In life, people will come and go, but the feelings of devotion and sentiment remain. Everyone leaves a mark somehow, whether it be good or bad, that no-one can mend. And in some respects, that's what defines us, makes us who we are.
Needless to say, in many ways, it leads to feelings of insecurity, denial, doubt, and fear to trust, so we end up in an endless cycle of such affairs.
Which leads us to the question we never want to ask; is it worth it?

1 comment:

  1. just because matt's a spack;
    (li)Matt(*) 8-| says:
    *you would'nt say she's only 16 would ya :P
    one of a kind this gal, and deffo a keeper. Special to every1 she meets and even more to others..
    even tho most was above me, i got the basics and all very tru!!
    love you charlie :)
    xxx

    ilovehim (:

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