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Long time no blog ;)So yesterday was some summer fusion thing in Ama-Gi in Kingston-Upon-Thamesss :) I went with two of my three besties (as my third bestie was still prancing around in Turkey ¬_¬) aaaand.. well, after traipsing around in heels in desperation to FIND the club, and looking SERIOUSLY overdressed for 5.30pm on a THURSDAY : we eventually arrived far too early as we were on the guest list, and continued to explore the likes of Kingston in search of an off-license that sold alcohol.. all in vain.

Nevertheless, we eventually found a small Sainsbury's and got a couple of bottles of vodkaaaa, which we drank as quickly as possible and then stuffed the remainderss in a bush as everyone was stopped and searched upon entry to the club.

Nice.

It was a good night tbhh, considering I hadn't been out in a rather long time, although it was effort to try to get Sonia to go there (despite her being the one to tell me about it :) let alone to dance.. but I eventually did it :D It did, however, get SO HOT and crowded upstairs that several trips between upstairs and downstairs had to be made. Of course this meant regularly seeing someone I didn't want to see, but lifee goes on. :)All-in-all, it was a rather good night, despite the immensely shit music,

[A little more this was seriously needed;]

and I have to feel rather proud of myself as I dragged Sonia to go against her will as she was too lazy, and as a result she met a charming young fellow who is now her significant other half.

Lovelyyy stuff.

Whattaa good night. Although by 12.30, after 5 hours or so of dancing, there was nothing better that I wanted to do than drink a cup of coffee (which I have now conveniently swapped for green teeeeaaa :D) and read a good book. Ohh well :D
I ended the night with a nice bowl of curry noodles at Sonias, and a good old chattt before a nice longg lie in. :]

So, I have a new hair cut, my best friend now has a boyfriend, I can't remember people's names when I would like to most AND I'm a bit of a spackkk tbh (Y.) Nice onee.
Tomorrow should be good;; Matt and Soniaaa are coming round, which should be interestingg.. considering my mother is number 20 on an embarassing scale of 1-10. Whichh reminds me, I need to put away the baby pictures... :\

Things to look forward to.. umm.. I'm going away on the 11th August with Sonia, which is always good times. But Matt's leaving me on the first, which is NOT good times. Oh ohhh AND we're edging ever closer to the 27th August - Doomsday (GCSE Results Day). I'm thinking a good bottle of vodka is needed on that day, as Matt said, 'to either celebrate, which is highly unlikely, or to get totally wankered and drown in my failure' which I personally think is a damn good philosophyy ;) Then of course, it's back to school. And that's always great fun. :/

Hmm. Well that's all for noww, I may come on and edit this later as its only midnight and I have another four hours or so to kill before I can get to sleep :)

And F.Y.I, everything below this line is a general rant; but did, nevertheless, inspire the title of this blog. Read on if you wish.
If not, may the force be with you.
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- Isn't it irritating, how there's someone that you put all your energy into forgetting about, do all you can just to shut them out your life because you know you need to let whatever happened go, because it's part of the past and it needs to be left there and so on, and you know you really can do better; but there's always something, that constant reminder when you lie in bed at night, or that feeling you can't shake, and no matter where you go you will always see them no matter how hard you try to avoid them, and all those efforts just fall apart and mean nothing, just like that. And sometimes you feel like a fool to think of the 'should haves' and the 'could haves', realizing you actually don't want to forget, because you want to hold on to everything that was because you're too scared to lose it in case it never comes around again.

I hate people that do that to you.
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