I'm only human

okaaay. so a lot and not much has simultaneously occured over this week, and i'm basically going to sum it up in a few words or phrases;

1. This week = FAIL.
I just finished my S1 exam, and let's just say, despite it being probably the easiest paper out of all the maths papers, it was, without a doubt, a fail. I got to a point where I was immensely frustrated and calculated my results instead. 55%. And that was me marking myself nicely and assuming everything I had attempted was right. YAY :D

2. Sleepless;
I've had, on average, about 20 hours sleep this week. And before you think, well that's not bad, thats 20 hours.. people are supposed to get about 8/9 hours a day. how many nines go into twenty? yeah. I thought so.

3. I don't understand;
I hate how something can be absolutely fantastically perfect one minute, and then the next, without any reason or rhyme has just alkfshadioyfhshdg-ed. Grr.

4. Efforttttttt;
well all in all, if you don't make any effort then why the fuck should I? which begs the question, should I walk away from you

5. The past;
It never really leaves you, does it. It's like a shadow, always there. You just don't see it all the time.

6. BDAYBDAY!
Well yes, I am now 17, and I feel old :( I also cannot be bothered to learn how to drive, and am probably the only teenager with this in mind :) LOL

7. AS levels are starting to take over me and my life.
Well I think tbh this week has been a bit of a wake up call to say the least..

8. Cravingsssss
Why are all the things that are bad for you just so damn good

9. Piercinggg
I'm getting my belly piercedededed :)

10. Him
You do my head in cos I don't understand you but you're so perfect and I just dislike youu. I also dislike how you're so high up this list.
And this is getting awfully irritating to colour code.

11. Mohnehhssss
I got me some mohnehsss for my bdaybday which leads me on to..

..number
12. Retail therapy;
Shoes. Dresses. Topsss. Shoes. :)) hello weekend of shopping.

13. I WANTTTTTTT ....
people are never satisfied with what they have. and I'm one of those people. I'd quite like something I want, for once, rather than me getting all the things I don't want. I suppose it is my fault expecting all the bad things all the time tbh but seriously, it'ss getting jarring. I want things to work out in my favour for once.

14. Being irritated at yourself;
It's awful when you have noone to blame but yourself, or noone to share the blame with you, especially if you're subconsciously aware that the things you're doing you will regret later.

15. I want to seee the future;
and read peoples minds.

16. I love Lifehouse's new album, smoke and mirrors :)

17. I kinda wanted to end this longgg list on my age, so here's a thought.
Do you take what's right in front of you, or do you hold out and hope what you really want, you'll get?


OKAY i'm gonna stop there. I find I complain a lot on my blog but probably because I don't like complaining to people. Or at people. However you want to interpret it.

Well yes there we have it.
Anyway.
I've got me some icecream and I'm gonna go and watch the time travellers wife :') <3
adiosss
xxx