You hear but you don't listen.

To whom it may concern,

I need you to listen to me.

Everything I say to you is just drowned out in your head by what you think and what you believe.

Stop trying to make me into a mini you. I'm nothing like you. I watch crime drama and romantic movies. I believe in forgiveness, understanding and compassion. I believe in soulmates. I listen to what people have to say. I'm altruistic because it makes me feel good and warms my heart to know I've made someone else happy, not for the benefit of myself. I don't twist things. I accept that not everything goes my way. I compromise. I believe in making mistakes. I take nature walks, pick flowers and strawberries. I go rock climbing. I sit in a tree and read a book. I paint. I'm not perfect, and I don't pretend to be. I acknowledge my mistakes - I don't just claim to. I say sorry. I believe in love, and how it conquers all.

I don't invest my happiness in a handbag, but in the hearts of other people. In his eyes. In my best friends hug.

You don't understand who are what I am because you don't fucking listen to me.

I want nothing more than to move away from you and all your superficiality. To buy a house with a huge studio where I can sit and I can paint. That's what I love, what I want to do. I want to sit and I want to draw, sculpt things with my bare hands. I like my charcoal covered overalls. I want to eat organic food, salads and a fruit smoothie because I care about my health. I want to go to the gym because I don't want heart disease. And I want to work in a lab. I want to recover evidence from crimes scenes and analyze it, or be an astrophysicist searching for a unified theory. I don't want to stand in front of a camera all day. I want to get married with an outdoor marquee by a river, not in a massive church with wedding bells. I want an old fashioned car, not 700 sports cars. I want to fall in love with someone who loves me for me, who makes me laugh, who I can cry to, not someone who is merely "financially stable." These are my choices and if some of them don't turn out right, let that be my mistake to make. Because it's my life and therefore I want to do things my way. I want to be free.

I wish you'd listen.

Because everything you are is everything I never want to be.